jennierhen

I am posting this because my grandma needs prayers and happy thoughts sent her way. She has been very sick for the past 2 months with bronchitis,pneumonia, ulcers,UTI's and pretty much anything else you can think of... they took her to the hospital this morning again and she is very dehydrated...she is in good spirits and is somewhat better but the last medicine she was on for her UTI made her sick to her stomach so she hadn't been eating or drinking enough...i am very worried about her and any positive thoughts and prayers would be wonderful.. she will be going to rehab after this stay at the hospital so that people who are capable can keep an eye on her and make sure that her medicines are taken right and she is eating and drinking enough so that can get better so she can enjoy her front porch parties ( anybody from shushan knows about these parties, they're famous) and be with us for a very long time... thanks

i decided to update this while sitting in class as the teacher plays with something so im bored.... schools been going good.. not too much work but enough to keep me busy. my morning class got canceled tomorrow so i get to sleep in YAY!!! i can't wait to get home for thanksgiving and get good food...were going to my cousin mary ellen's in schnectady... we were supposed to go to plattsburgh but we decided against it because of travel time and we don't want to leave marvin for very long... i know i promised myself that i wouldn't get to attached to the dog but i am... i miss him when im here at school and cant wait to get home on friday to see him... i wish i could have him here at school but soon i will be with him all the time... i cant wait for christmas break i need to be at home and just chill out... in other news im going to pittsburgh and philadelphia in april with the boy scouts yet again.. another bus trip... im really excited... the ladies are staying in a hotel room... sarah and i have decided we want a honeymoon suite so we can soak in the heart shaped tub... in other traveling news... im going to alaska this summer to see adrian and alison... im soooooo excited... i can't wait to see them and to see that part of the country... well i guess i better pay attention...

well im back... it looks like its going to be a pretty good year... summer was crazy but hey whos wasn't i had a great time seeing everybody and hanging out with my bestests... i promise to update more regular as time goes on but homes internet sucks so i really didn't get a chance to update... well off to bed...

so im home... its been a hectic few weeks but it was fun... was in ali and adrian's wedding... which was a blast but very very very cold... i have been working forty hours a week which has just added to my stress because these lovely people i work with never show up for their shifts so then we are screwed for the day so i get stuck staying later and really i just wanna go home... i have found out that my dog is neurotic... he has totally lost his marbles... he chews on his bed and he has chewed it sooo much that the stuffing has come out and now is all over the floor... but i still love him... i have been spending a ton of time with my bestest friend we have had a LOT of fun... this week heath is coming up to visit me which will be nice... i miss seeing him everyday it wierd because i was with him all the time and we were always together and now i get lonely when im home all alone and their is nobody to talk to.. i cant just walk down the hall and have somebody to talk to. thats the great thing about college... their is always somebody around to hang out with... you can always find somebody to talk with or just hang out with...the balloon fest is this weekend and i love to go and take pictures...ill post them when i get them back... well thats all for now... off i go to play with the neurotic dog...

so im home... i dont wanna be here...

i think its lifting... i love my friends and all the things they do for me... i can't wait for my classes to be done and i can sit around and do nothing.

i feel that im sinking deeper and deeper into this depression... i find myself on the verge of crying all the time... i don't know how to shake it or what to do...maybe when i get home things will be better and i will pull myself out of this ... i know im scaring my friends here because they have never seen me this way and don't know what to do but i don't know what to tell them to do because i don't know what to do...i have turned my phone off just because i don't want to talk and i ignore IM's because i just dont want to listen... i really hope that this passes because i want to be happy and i want to have fun this summer and enjoy myself but i don't know if i can shake this...

I can't do this anymore... put a bullet in my head and call it a day

all i have to say is.. Is it May 8th yet????

i know shocking right... my family got a dog... his name is Marvin the Superdog...he has a cape with a big red S... sorry my little cousin came up with it...Marvin is a schnoodle... he is half Schnauzer and half poodle... hes sooo adorable.. he loves playing soccer and laying on peoples laps... im back at school and i miss him sooo much... well i guess thats about it...